hey !!
u noe wat?


Ting is on DIET ! =)
wahahahahhaahahahahahahahahahahahaaa !

alright, one convert today =)
when i noe abt it, i was like.... "Orh, yeah.."
cos when i receive the sms, i was shepherding jes, den didnt tik much..
haha
den on the train.......
i think & think...
i duno y i keep smiling to myself leh!
i cant help it !
haha


actually my cg is facing some probs..
noe that i shouldnt be too affected by it, cos miracles is coming.
in the midst of all these, God nv fail to bless
we have one convert !
wah...


rmber sometime ago, shirls say something like...
" its worth it, isnt it? "
cos she was super busy to prepare metamorphosis, but when she see one of e NB, badly desire for holy spirit, she tot to herself, all the hard work is worth it !!
and i tot so too =)


alot of things, i reali find it tough to handle..
many times, i dun feel like doing many things.
but to think abt it, wat i am doing for God cannot be compared with wat He has done.
and also, its worth doing all these.. yeah =)
one day, i will see all my Nbs being a shepherd.
when that day comes, i will surly say this to myself..
"thank God that we didnt give up!"
and for now, i will take care of them with God's strength
they are the future leaders in west !
=)

Proverbs 29 : 11

A fool gives full vent to his anger, but a wise man keeps himself under control.

a few more mins to go!
and i am going for cg already =)
i reali pray that today's cg will be ministering to everyone, esp to the not connected ones.


i seriously tik that my life right now is too slack already.
i am always procrastinating !
Jesus, tell me wat to do??
there is alot of things to do in mind, but most of them are not yet done..
day by day, i always end my day with disappointment with myself.
i am reali upsat by me !! =(


i wana lead a exciting life.
not so stagnant, not so slack.
i wana be busy!!
actually i can one, the one that hinders me is myself.
also, i wana be a good example to e rest...
i wana be someone that when god look at me, he would smile.
and also, no more nonsense with him, i gotta guard my heart.

last night, i came before God.
i repented for not using my time wisely.
i reali duno wat to do leh....
i reali duno wat can i do in order not to procrastinate.
i tired lots of ways, but always fail !
but last night, God help me to realise that will-power alone is not enough.
in order to be a changed person, how is it possible to be done by will power alone?
thats y i always fail.
i was relieve that God assured me that i cant help myself.
haha
cos if he say that i can do it alone, i can confirm that i am going to fail him mann.
but God did not tell me that i can do it, infact he told me that i wun make it.
unless i attempted it together with him.
will-power is not enough.
amen =)


i reali dun wana cruise my days away.
i mus have a breakthruu in this !
God, help me!
enough is enough.
i dun jus wana be a jaw-bone.
that only noe how to say, duno how to do.
this kind of person is irritating isnt it?
all i need to to get up and do something.
hais, God help me.

jus some pics..


i lurrve my shepherd!


nth better to do.....


its a mirror reflection!


at mrt... haha...


me & my sheep! u are impt to me =)


west female CLS... our 'david' smile!


jency look so greedy! haha...
friends for life =)


joyce and me!!
u are impt too!


my 1.53m back view,

my two brothers!


my hubby =)

Jus found this pic..
this pic reali look interesting!! hahaa
the crazy side of us =)



wahahahaha....
=)

i reali thank God for favoring me =)
as i tik back, there are many many things that God has blessed me.
but many times, i didnt notice it.
jus like for example...
my cg, it was so terrible earlier on, but God change the situation.
i took some time to realise that...
that time i was like...
"eh? ya hor, our cg became so loving le hor??"
also, when i was healed many many times by God, i didnt realise until when someone reminded me or even God himself reminded me.
last week, i forgot abt the guitar, i was so panic...
keep calling & calling to ask if anyone have a guitar with them.
den finally when david found one, i was so relieve.
when i am supposed to share a blessing that God has given, i actually forgot abt this blessing!


oh my....
i have to learn to count God's blessings mann.
we have to grateful.
counting God's blessing is one way to refresh our soul.


hmmmms.
these days, God kinda turn my life around.
i have breakthrru in me! =)
was actually rejecting ppl to come into my life..
to be my frenz, as in, close frenz that can share life.
dun ask me y i am lidat, i also duno y!!
i jus find it hard to trust & also, to share deep...
so whenever i am at my lowest peak of life..
i felt very lonely, cos i have no one to turn to.
i always comfort myself by saying i have God.
haha
thats true lar! but i blive God places ppl ard me, he has his purpose!!


eelee was telling me to invest in a friendship.
den i gave a serious thought abt it & ya, i tried.
so, as i am trying, i can see that ppl ard me make efforts in building our friendship too!
thou i still have a prob sharing deep, but u noe wat?
when i am angry, hurt or something, i realise that i actually have a circle of ppl that are very ready to be my listening ear.
omg, y did i tik that i dun have frenz in e past?
i have frenz!
i have my close frenz =)
God reali help me alot.
and i can say, God provides.
now, i dun tik i will feel lonely when i am at my lowest peak of life, cos i noe not only i have God, i have ppl that are willing to go thru the darkest time of my life =)
for my part, i need to go extra miles to build a friendship.
And also, I realized that there are still many things that I haben let them noe, God pls give me courage to say! =)
not only sharing deep, but always seeking an opportunity to encourage each other.
hmmmms.
currently i have 4 frenz that i reali reali treasured.
they are jens, cindy, joyce and eelee =)


last fri...
went to jens hse to stay over.
i am reali reali very blessed.
and touch too.
finally!
i noe our friendship has deepen since den =)
i reali look forward to another stay over.
i haven feel this way for a long time already.
thankiew God !!!!

argh, had a super long post & its gone again!
nvm, anyway...
jus wana tell u guys that the "others" in my blog rite, is no longer those archives le.
its canon in D in electric guitar!
very nice =)



anyway i lurve this webbie..

http://www.donghaeng.net/index-e.htm

thou many of u already noe of this webbie le..
but yea, the last time i went, cant view leh, now can le =)
actually, no harm watching again!
very nice =)

Had a fruitful time with God last nite =)
read 3 caps of mark last nite...
this parable made me ponder and reali think abt it..
let me share with u...


3"Listen! A farmer went out to sow his seed. 4As he was scattering the seed, some fell along the path, and the birds came and ate it up. 5Some fell on rocky places, where it did not have much soil. It sprang up quickly, because the soil was shallow. 6But when the sun came up, the plants were scorched, and they withered because they had no root. 7Other seed fell among thorns, which grew up and choked the plants, so that they did not bear grain. 8Still other seed fell on good soil. It came up, grew and produced a crop, multiplying thirty, sixty, or even a hundred times."
[-mark 4 : 3-7-]


i stop here & wonder.....
"multiplying thirty, sixty, or even a hundred times?"
wow this sound so amazing!
hmmmms, how how how?
how to multiply?
wat is the good soil that can cause so much multiplication??
den i read on.......


14The farmer sows the word. 15Some people are like seed along the path, where the word is sown. As soon as they hear it, Satan comes and takes away the word that was sown in them. 16Others, like seed sown on rocky places, hear the word and at once receive it with joy. 17But since they have no root, they last only a short time. When trouble or persecution comes because of the word, they quickly fall away. 18Still others, like seed sown among thorns, hear the word; 19but the worries of this life, the deceitfulness of wealth and the desires for other things come in and choke the word, making it unfruitful. 20Others, like seed sown on good soil, hear the word, accept it, and produce a crop—thirty, sixty or even a hundred times what was sown."
[-mark 4: 14-20-]


amen & amen.
the conclusion made is..........
THE WORD OF GOD IS THE KEY.


got wat i am trying to say?

today is the 19th.
i super love 19th...
cos its e day when i am born.. and the day that i noe jesus.
means, exactly 5 mths later is my 18th birthday and another exact 3 mths, its gonna be my 3rd spiritual bdae =)
yeah !!


went skool today.
wawawa...
i dun like wed cos i dun like accounts.
4 hrs in e class, with 5 mins break in between.
can die die die die.
hahahaha.
the gal beside slept so soundly....
only 7 ppl turn up & 2 of them was 2 hrs late for class.
so zai mann.
wahaha
but yea, i am not going to be lidat, wana be serious in studies mann


wow.
i am so refresh by god.
i have decided le.
i wana discipline myself!
i have no time management mann
okay, gonna discipline.
wana cut down on internet..
yes!
by 12 plus, i have to say bye bye to all msn ppl le.
wahaha


for God, i wana get out of my comfort zone.
this year, i blive is a year of growth for my personal walk with Jesus.
i either make it or break it.
i wana use this year to improve myself in many areas.
2006 gonna be a historical year for me.
a year of breakthrough.
2006 is more den jus re taking Os !
oh come on!

hey ! pls go to this link.
damn nice =)


http://www.fathersloveletter.com/fllpreviewlarge.html


actually wana upload as pic de... but...................... nvm.
wahahaha
mus see k!!
abt God's letter to us =)

today is a great day for me !
yeah.
had cg...
yeah, my gals always make my day =)
thanks gals.
yupps
hehes..


was so refresh today.
ya.
being with God's ppl is always e bestest.


argh. how?
i feel so afraid now.
shall not elaborate thou.
but ya.. God, help me !


anyway, jus wana take this time to affirm jes.
haha
she so cool lor.
she very enthu.
noe wat?
cos her NB cant go for metamorphosis cos orchard too far..
den she decided to hold a mcg on her own.
to invites her frenz & NBs.
they might watch passion of e christ too!
den after that mass invite to easter service.
wow... so touch.
i am so proud to have a sheep like her =)
how can not west a 2 grow with such excited ppl like her?
thank God mann !
=)
love ya sheep =)


she prepared HARD for the sushi mcg larr.
God, bless her.
God heal her too! she is sick =(
hehehe.
in jesus name, amen !


*ahems*
the rest of my sheep, dun jealous k
haha
noe that u guys work very hard le
but yes, come on.. work harder!!
trust in God larr.. lolx
we mus grow, we have to grow.. we WILL grow=)

the greatest enemy is yourself.



Who am I,
that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I,
that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart


Who Am I,
that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who Am I,
that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me


i'm sorry.
truely..


craviin for a fresh touch.
revial in my heart.
private breakthroughs leads to public breakthroughs.



procrastination is a sin.

west a four does not exist anymore...
now our cg will be west A TWO =)
alright, other den the change of name part, there is not much diff lars =p


God..
revive this cg.

i wonder, who am i to deserve all these goodness from God?
many times, when things dun go well, its so tough for me to give thanks.
but yes, come to tik abt it... did God short change me?


i remember asking God for converts.
and when God gave me converts... we rejoice!
ok so as all of us noe that converting is jus the begining...
and when they are so tough to be taken care of..
we complained.
God i repent =(


isnt that weird?
if we are so afraid of challenges, den y ask God for converts in e first place?
arent we the one that ask God for converts?
den y complain when we are given not 1 but 3?
oh well, stupid sinful nature.


yeah, i seriously agree that they are a bunch of tough ppl.
sometimes, i reali feel like screaming at them.
or even, heck care them.
but, isnt that stupid?
isnt that me who ask God for them to join the kingdom of light ?
not that i want them to remain lidat.
but yes, its a duh for NBs to behave this way.
as a spiritual "mother" extra miles is a must.
have u seen a mother being angry when the baby is crying or making a mess in her life?
no, i dun tik so.
when a mother decide to give birth to that baby, she shoud noe that taking care of a baby is more den feeding him / her milk daily.
its definelty more den that mann.


God, u are so faithful.
u gave us 3 NBs.
opps more den that, 7 NBs !
no more complains.
cos this is wat i asked for.
u put all these NBs under us, u have in mind that we can handle.
so yes God, we will do our best =)


who am i that God gave me all these?
who am i that the king of kings, the lord of lords that call me his beloved?
am i dumb or am i an idiot not to appreciate it & to hurt him over & over again.
am i stupid or no-brain for letting the tot of giving up enter my mind?
oh my God, i am so blessed.
He calls me His beloved.
i am a nobody, & he calls me his beloved.
how amazing is that?
how "un-real" is that?
but yea, its not a fairy tale..
is even more den a prince falling in love with cinderalla.
its even more amazing den that.

my heart is beating fast.
dun reali noe how to interpret how i feel now..
in short, i dun reali like the way i feel now..


probably bcos i am too excited for sch tml..
probably bcos i was terrified jus now cos i tot i cant take my Os, & tml i have to go POST to pay the fees. very scared that i something crop up & i cant pay tml, if i cant manage to pay by tml, thats it. bye bye to O level. (pray pray)
probably bcos i kana put aeroplane again.. alright, getting used to it soon..
probably bcos of confirmation. quite lousy..
but i noe, that is not e end of e world, dun give up =)
probably bcos i am desperate of retaining all my NBs, but it seems tougher & tougher..
lets not give up.
probably bcos i juz watch "the series of unfortunate events" & it somehow stir my emotions.. (but this is highly impossible) the show is abit dry & bored can?


failure is not when things dun go well,
failure is when u give up.


oh well, to tik abt it.
wat is it that God cannot do?
my God is a powerful God.
My God is e Lord of the impossibles.
my God is e Lord of miracles.
my God is e lord of west a 4
my God is e Lord of jocasta,madeline & xiu jin.
my God is e Lord of jia min jing ting step & jane
my God is e Lord of cindy phoebe & jes
my God is e lord is e Lord that longs to bless us.
My God is e very same God that can grow the mustard seed into a huge tree.


in e bible, there are so many miracles.
if it can happen in the OT, in the acts church.
why cant it happen NOW,HERE in West?
hur !


okay, enough is enough.


lets not give up =)
do our best & God will do e rest.
lets give our 101 % to retain all of them !
no discouragements allowed, no time for that.


the time invested.
the time spent on extra miles.
the time spent on waiting,
the time spent on phone.
the time spent on sms
IS NOT A WASTE.
the things we are doing now, its not a waste of time
we are doing this for a purpose, doing this for God =)


jia you west a 4
jia you jes
jia you cindy
jia you phoebe
jia you ting.


lets not give up, focus on God.
yes!

went to new skool to reg.
was expecting a few peeps in e room, but i went in e wrong time
it was breaktime, therefore... i saw alot of the students there.
oh well, glad to say that they were quite friendly=)


wanted a morning slot, but end up, i got an afternoon slot.
initially wasnt too happy abt it, wanted to jus smile & go off, cos if i take e afternoon slot, how to do ministry??
but when i see e timetable, i dun reali wan to change to morning slot le..
whahahaha...
cos its only until 2pm.
some more dun need to wake up so early..
means, the previous post abt waking up 5.30 is not valid anymore!
yeah ! =)
not bad lar.


basically, everyday study till 2pm..
except for wed & fri ..
wed till 5.30pm & fri till 7.30pm.
thurs no lesson..


eh? y am i reporting my schedule on blog?
hahahahhaa...
nvm lars.


met up with my old frenz today.
haha
my fren told me that her sis ask her a question...
" why is there so many "gods" around?? y got so many religions?"
when she told me this, i was abit shock.
hahahaha...
cos there is actually ppl that wonder abt this.
oh well, duh.
i wana mit her sis mann, den i can tell her that there is actually only ONE God.
hmmmms !


actually its quite tough to take care of NBs isnt it?
as wat many ppl says, its like taking care of babies.
which i seriously tik so too!
but u noe wat?
to retain all e NBs is a must!
cannot give up cos...
1st- they are precious to God.
2nd- They are precious to God
3rd- They are precious to God...
4th- They need God
5th- they need God
6th- they need God
haha
ok lar enough..
dun wana give up is cos i dun wana miss out the process.
also, they are reali precious.
precious things is nv easy to handle, they always need extra care, extra protection, extra attention, extra... blah blah blah.


a unit in west a 4 !!
oh come on .


oh btw
i hate my hair mann !
argh =(

its normal to hit goal...
its unusual if didnt hit goal.
isnt that true??


God, i am so sick of being unusual.
could u please do something abt it?
come on God, let me experience wat is it like not to miss Goal.
let hitting goal to be norm in west a 4.


tell me!
tell me wat is wrong??
its time to bear fruit.
its time to grow.


God, take a look.
look at these ppl.
they need u lord!
God, use us, use us to bring them into ur kingdom.
God, would u please use us!


i reali thank God that e ppl in my cg are excited to see growth.
we are all looking forward!
God, tell us, wat is it that we lack..
please...... argh.


its when we wana do great things for the lord, we experience him 1st hand.
its when we step out of e boat & take e challenge to walk on water...
we experience storms....
its when we experience storm, we grow.
and also, experience jesus, a personal encounter with Him=)


God................
i dun rmber when is that last time that i ever hit my goal.
make it tgis week God !
okay?


pray pray pray.
God love this cg more den i do.
i blive He is more kan jiong den me.
hahahaha.
commit this into ur hand.

*Drum Roll.............*


Ting is going back to skool !


not jurong sec but Penciltutor school.
eh? i juz realised that, its pencil-tutor..
hahahahaha.... the name of e skool sound stupid, but when the 2 words come together, it look so pro.
oh well...
at yishun....
7.30am start lesson...
means.......
ard 6.30am have to take train le
cos i tik still have to take bus frm yishun mrt, I THINK
means..... 6.15am have to be at bus stop...
means... 5.30am have to wake up!!!! (provided that i dun slack too long on bed)


ARGH......... early early early early.


but i am a bit excited.
yeah, i dun need to rot at hm le!
=)


i hope i can get in...
going to reg tml.
God please .....


i have a sudden wish.
how i wish............
i can drive.
den i can wake up later le.
hahahaha
but mission impossible
alrite, back to earth..
ting shall wake up at 5.30am & take MRT.


wahahahahahhahaaha......

I WILL TRUST AS I WAIT, FOR MY GOD IS NEVER LATE

dun exactly rmber where i "kope"this pic from.. but yay, this has been a blessing to me =)

serving God cannot be a routine!

its not juz abt working & working non stop.

we tend to fall into e trap of being a working machine & forgetting why we are doing wat we are doing.

its impt to noe why u are doing wat u are doing.

if u tik serving God is a routine, den i guess u have miss out alot !!

Show the world that Jesus live...

i reali tik life transformation is e best prove that Jesus is alive.

i tik its reali impt to check our life...

are we leading a life that show others that Jesus is alive?

how often did u complain? how do u react when things dun go well? wat is the topic when u are chatting with ya frenz? who are u when u are alone? who r u when there is no spiritual person ard u? how often did u lost ur temper? is ur life a joyful one? and and and... how often did u announce to e world that u are sad etc?wats ur msn nick(depressed, heart broke, etc etc?)

haiz, sometimes, our life reali dun prove that jesus is alive.

come on, be different !

lets not go ard & show that bitter face, let our life show that Jesus live.

start to be aware of ur "image" .

let ppl noe that jesus is alive.

the way u react, ur speech, the joy level gotta be different.

be positive when things dun go well, cos we have Jesus =)

its always easier said den done.
oh well, i will raise both of my hands in agreement..
(hmmmm.... raising both of my legs as well)
i am very convicted abt doing the rite thing despite how u feel, coz we cannot do the work of God base on feelings, we cannot make decisions due to feelings, we cannot due to feelings, push all responsibilities aside & ignore.
bcoz feelings go up & down.
esp when we are emotional, the things we do, the decisions we made, tend to be stupid.
and of cos, causing us to regret in the near future.


all these, is wat i always repete myself in cg, in shepherding, in dmm & even normal chattings.
but but but...
when it happens to me, i seriously find it tough to do the rite thing despite how i feel.


dun reali feel good for the past few days.
kept tearing, haiz.....
in my mind, i clearly noe that i cannot allow emotions to affect me.
but it is reali affecting me despite how i try to avoid it.
i keep meeting ppl up trying to keep myself occupied.
but ya lar, its dumb.


den den den den....
alot of "dun feel like" ..
shall not elaborate thou.
so many times, i have do the rite things.
and at that moment, it doesnt feel good to do e rite thing!
i noe wat are e rite things to do...
if u ask me, i can even list them down.
thats y, i have to make a decision...
to do e rite thing or to nurse the emotions.


haiz, i reali very sad.


but i thank God for being so so faithful.
God is juz so tangible.
as in, at e end, i still did wat is rite.
didnt wana submit to my feelings cos God is constanly reminding me.
God is always there chit-chatting with me.
i ask him alot of times, "wat should i do?"
or... "God, pls understand, i am not feeling good,can i not do it?"
den when God ans me... "do wat is rite.." i will cry... haha
sounds funny rite?
cos i was reali reluctant.


here comes the blessings..
after obeying God, i realised alot.
realised that 'she & she' can be my frenz.
shall not say their names =p
i wana invest in building friendship with them =)
i reali want.
its not easy to be a fren.
trust me.
but i want to =)


ii duno how to say.
this time when i tell my ppl or any other person abt doing wat is rite despite feelings, i guess i can tell them with much more conviction.
cos i experience that.
i noe how tough it gonna be & i experience blessings!


e blessings are more den juz the fren part.
its that, i appreciate God more, my relationship with him grew to another level le... =)
i heard this sentence 2 times...
"hey, u gotta grow up, u gotta be mature.."
haiz, i want to..
reali.
i want to get out of that little gal in me.


face the music.
this is the term rite?
its challenging.
have to be humble, gotta have self-control & courage.
i cant avoid this forever rite?
come on ting, u have God!


all in all...
i juz wana say that, i reali wana please God..
i reali want to.


do wat is rite despite how u feel.
easy? nahz!
but it pleases God & also, u will surly not regret.


ting... could u please juz grow up?


okay btw....
i reali tik that my 3 sheep are God's gift to me.
today so sad lar, hit 5 for service...
i was like... "hello... i tot our goal is 12?"
was so discourage....
i blive my gals are too.


den juz now, my gals ask me to call them to conference.
they start evaluating & planning wat to do next week.
i was reali touch lar.
reali.


thank god that they have ownership for this grp.
i am not e only one working.
gals, i reali love u to bits!
sometimes, i reali feel that we are more like frenz.
love u gals not only cos u all work hard lar, but more of... i tik its reali God eh...
not cliche ok!!
but its reali God that bring us together & west A 4 is juz like our home =)
as in... mayb there will be down times ba, no no, there WILL be down times, but i blive all these wun change the fact that we are united, we are so loving.
wahahahahahahahaha!!!!


i love u sheep.
phoebe, jes & cindy =)